Killing yourself to Live

We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime.

It's easy.

The first boy I met was in 6th grade.

*His name was C, we talked about horses and mopeds.*

The last* boy* I love will be someone I haven't even met yet, probably.

They all count.

But there are certain people you love who do something else;

they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like.

These are the most important people in your Life,

and you will meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years.

But there's still one more tier to all this;

there is always one person you love who becomes that definition.

It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually.

This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people,

even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable.

The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else,

and they're often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really want to love someone.

But that person still wins.

They win, and you lose.

Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."

Inspired by Chuck Klosterman

If falling in love is easy or not...

I'll leave open.

I fall in love everday.

In objects, in moments in happenings or a smile ...

and I always know:

It feels good to be around you